Some Zahir....

Esther,the zahir...
1
.......She fills everything,She is the only reason i am alive.I look around,i prepare myself for the talk i am to give,and i understand why i braved the snow,the traffic jams and the ice on roads:in order to be reminded that every day i need to rebuild myself and to accept -for the first time in my entire existence-that I love another human being more than I love myself.

On the contrary i am pleased that she exists;she has shown me that i am capable of a love of which i myself knew nothing,and this leaves me in a state of grace.
I accept the zahir,and will let it lead me into a state of either holiness or madness.

2

.......Love is an untamed force.When we try to control it,it destroys us.When we try to imprison it,it enslaves us.When we try to understand it,it leaves us feeling lost and confused.
This force is on earth to make us happy,to bring us closer to God and to our neighbour,and yet,given the way that we love now,we enjoy one hour of anxiety for every minute of peace.

"Even worse are those people who say:I'm happy because i'm sacrificing my life for those I love".
"And you think that the people who love us want to see us suffering for their sakes? Do you think that love is a source of suffering? ".
"To be honest,yes".
"Well,it shouldn't be".

3

......."In order for the true energy of love to penetrate your soul,your soul must be as if you had just been born.Why are people unhappy? Because they want to imprison that energy,which is impossible.Forgetting your personal history means leaving that channel clear,allowing that energy to energy to manifest itself each day in whatever way it chooses,allowing yourself to be guided by it".

4

.......'You will find someone else'
'Of course I will: I'm young,pretty,intelligent,desirable,but will I experience all the things i experienced with you?'

'You'll experience different emotions and,you know,although you may not believe it,i loved you while we were together'.
'I'm sure you did,but that doesn't make it any less painful.We'll leave in separate taxis tomorrow.I hate goodbyes,especially at airports or train stations.

5

.......And i am sad,because it makes me think you're about to leave.I've known you would ever since we first met,but its still difficult,because I've got used to being with you'.
'Thats the problem,we do get used to things'.
'I'ts human too'.


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The Zahir